You are at an age of self-discovery. Part of the process is to discover who you are by dis-covering your self to the world.
Alas, so much vulnerability is involved. So much courage. Not to mention wisdom when one must test the waters before diving in. Some environments are conducive to openness and trust. In some environments people are fearful of disclosure, largely influenced by the power of social norms, sanctioning in subtle ways those who do not conform.
If one can not freely open oneself then art, music, writing, etc. help.
Socrates said, “Know thyself.” Polonius counseled, “And this above all, to thy own self be true…”
Listen to others to learn who is authentic. Spend time with them. Reveal yourself to them at a rate at which you feel comfortable. If you are authentic you will draw people to you who are authentic, deep, and sincere.
You have a beautiful soul and a sensitive spirit. When you are alone, allow yourself quiet time to get in touch with your soul and feel the love within.
When necessary, sleep, so that through your dreams you can replenish your soul. The streams that nourish your inner world are many and varied.
As you discover peace within, the environment around you will change and the seeds of love will bear fruit in your relationships.